Most photographers and artists find themselves constantly asking why they do what they do and does it really have any purpose or meaning. I spent quite a few years making photographs with a strong belief that I had a vision and something to offer but never convinced that I really had anything at all. After countless hours of study, practice and making photographs I grew more comfortable with what I was doing but the doubts were always present. I suppose these doubts are a key contributor to what pushed me to continue and kept me from giving up. I kept telling myself that I was making art for myself and what others thought about it did not matter to me. I was lying to myself, other’s opinions did matter. I can honestly say that I have grown out of this and did in fact stick to my beliefs and vision making the photographs that I wanted to make. Suffering the many highs and lows that any artistic endevour will surly experience, I stayed true to myself. My work may or may not have a wide audience, may or may not be appreciated but I do not allow this to influence my work. Experience has taught me that ones art will in fact be stronger if they believe in themselves and pursue their vision.
I certainly don’t like or appreciate every image I make. In fact I like very few of them. If I end up with ten or twelve photographs a year that I can honestly say have a voice that speaks to me, I’m thrilled. I spent a few hours this morning combing through my image library selecting images for submittal to an upcoming juried exhibit. I wanted my selections to be strong and on point with the theme of the exhibit. I started with fifty one images spanning eight years and narrowed it down to ten which was a difficult task. Yeah, do the math, this is less than seven images per year and this exhibit is for figure work, my primary focus over these past eight years.
Do I believe these images will make the cut? I have no idea if they will but they speak the loudest to me and have deep meaning to me, which, at the end of the day is what’s important to me. I receive many more rejections then acceptances to juried exhibits but that will not deter me from submitting. I won’t bore you with all of the details but every one of these images has a back story which is one of the things that makes them so special to me and why I chose them.
I would be remiss if I neglected to acknowledge my collaborators. Without their artistry these images would not exist.